Today I met with a psychologist.
The LT had been suspecting for sometime that I may have ADD.
I read some about Adult ADD online, and started crying when I realized that the symptoms are things that I have struggled with, or found frustrating about myself.
I finally made an appointment (I kept forgetting to do so...how apt) and today had a great discussion with an expert on the subject.
She said it is clear from talking to me that I have AD/HD (I'm not sold on the H part yet) and Anxiety as well.
It really feels like a weight has been lifted in that the things that frustrate me are beyond my control. I have found ways to cope with some aspects, yet it is exhausting to constantly do so.
I am going to try to treat it with medication to see if that helps as well.
I have always felt like I am capable of doing so much more, but just can't accomplish the things I want to. I am praying that now I can move forward and work towards my full potential.